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Monday, January 7, 2013

and then there was monday.


Today I got my period. (TMI? Ok, yeah. Sorry.)

Normally, it's just a little bit of a bummer, because of the cramping and the crying and all that jazz. 

When you're trying to get pregnant it's a little more than that. 

We've only been trying for a few months, so honestly I shouldn't be that torn up. I know things will happen when it's time and maybe it's just not the right time yet. 

I was so lucky with Josephine because we didn't have to wait. First month and we were pregnant. Easy. 

Now each month it's a little harder. And as much as I tell myself that there's always next month, there's that anxious voice in the back of my mind saying, "What if you just can't get pregnant anymore?" 

And that freaks me out. 

 I want Josie to have a little brother or sister! I see her playing with other kids and I just know she would be the best big sister ever. 

And the bigger she gets, the more nostalgic I get to hold one of those little infants again. 


I just have to keep reminding myself to give it time. And that whether I'm pregnant or not...life is pretty awesome. We have a beautiful family and a place to live and everything's going to be ok. 

Right? 


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18 comments:

  1. 1. Stress about getting pregnant can actually mess up your ovulation schedule and you could miss out on "the perfect day" to get knocked up, mama. My dad's co worker was trying for nearly two years doing everything to the point of hand stands after sex. When they gave up, she got pregnant two months later. :P

    2. Do you chart or know anything about cervical mucus and positions? Look into it. It's seriously nifty stuff!

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  2. Awe I know the feeling. The first time around we got pregnant with out even trying this time around totally different story. One of the things that I have been slacking on is exercising and eating right. So in the next month I am going to do that...another things is stress!! It plays a huge part. Good luck!

    Candice
    lillythroughthevalley.blogspot.com

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  3. I'm sorry love! I've been having a little bit of a crappy Monday as well. I do know that stress can send your body and cycle into a funk... try to do some things for you :) Bubble bath, massage, or maybe just an afternoon nap! All those things help me take a deep breath & relax! Don't worry momma, everything will work out the way it's supposed to :)

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  4. Booooo. Getting Aunt Flo when you're TTC is the absolute worst. I remember it vividly when trying to make our little Taylortot. I do know that the more you stress, the harder it gets. So relax, have fun (wink wink) and I just know your little bundle of joy will be on its way soon!

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  5. :( I'm sorry, I can relate to this 100%. After 4 years and 4 miscarriages my hopes keep getting up and then shattered. Sending you lots of hugs and prayers.

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  6. Awesome post. Just remember its all in the Lord's hands. I think it's completely normal to feel worried. I feel worried that I won't get pregnant and we aren't even trying haha!

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  7. Lol i'm starting this week off with hte Flu, & my monthly gift has been around for 3 weeks now & I have no idea why!! But it really sucks :(

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  8. Love to you!

    We tried for over a year to have Jackson. I had 2 miscarriages and we did fertility stuff. All those shenanigans were really difficult. What brought me the most comfort was something a friend had said to me when she was TTC and having a super difficult time. She said something to the effect of, "The Lord sees all his kids, right? So maybe he's preparing a family that my kid is going to teach on his/her mission. Maybe he's preparing my kid's future spouse. There's so much more than just me and my kid in play. Maybe He needs this extra time!" And then she shared that if she had been born when her parents initially were TTC, she would never have met her own husband! So amidst all my trying and not succeeding, I would tell myself "ok, the Lord is preparing something that my kiddo will need in the future" and that brought me the most comfort.

    Call me or email me any time :) <3

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  9. I am so sorry! I to such a bummer, no matter if you have a baby or have been trying for months. I totally get it. Hugs!

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  10. Great post! Great attitude. And you are totally right... trust God. Thanks for the reminder!

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  11. Breathe. Just breathe. I am here for you if and when you need me. It is hard and it does hurt. Whether you've been trying for 2 years (like us) or several months (like you). We want what we want when we want it and we want it NOW! The Lord is on your side Stef and He is by your side. I love what Landon ^^^ said that was seriously the best thing I have read all day.

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  12. I know it's frustrating & disappointing when TTC. Whether it's been a few months, 6 months or a year {like Luke & I}. God knows when the time is right for you & your family! Hang in there! :) xoxo

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  13. Oh drat. :( Sending positive vibes your way!!!

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  14. It is so disappointing when our hopes are let down. God knows exactly what He's waiting for. Waiting is so hard, but His plans are always so much more awesome than we could have imagined. I will pray for you. May a little sweetie bless your body SOON!
    Xoxo

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  15. I can definitely relate. My husband and I have been trying since June and it's not happened yet. I've been more emotional every month I think--and it's all exacerbated by the fact that I'm raising my stepdaughter full-time. I worry that I'm doomed to a life of raising her for her horrible mother while not ever getting to have a baby with my husband. :( having babies is tough work!

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  16. Hi babe, cheer up and stay strong. God has a plan for everyone of us and everything happens for a reason (as cliche as it sounds). Your little angel will eventually come to you and your husband, don't ever give up and don't stop trying! :)

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  17. You're right mama, everything happens with time. It WILL happen for you guys. I too know the stress of trying. Just when I had given up and given into wine I got two pink lines and I was shocked. It's amazing how things sneak up on us. Stay strong. It will all work out.

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  18. I'm sorry mama ~ things will happen when your body is ready for it to.
    You'll get there!

    By the way ... need to come over soon! Have a ton of stuff for you to go through that was Reagan's :)

    xoxo
    Lanaya
    www.raising-reagan.com

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I love reading each and every one of your comments! They totally make my day. I try to respond to each one as quickly as possible, but with a toddler...let's face it, life gets in the way. If you have a question for me that needs answering immediately, feel free to send me an email! missjoandco[at]gmail[dot]com.

Thanks for being awesome!

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